Stress!

Hey, you! :)

I'm sure you've been stressed one time or another, especially if you have exams coming up or you work. I'm a person which becomes easily stressed with just about anything. The difference is the way we handle it. Some people can easily handle the situation, while others cannot. Unfortunately, i am one of those people. Here are some situations which you might be able to relate to..

Firstly, we all know that stress causes us to eat twice as much as we usually would, and then that leads to weight gain. We also feel way more lazier so we won't feel like working out either! Due to this, we will then feel depressed because we feel 'fat'. I'm already very conscious about how i look and worry about how i'm going to be judged, so this makes the problem even worse for me!

Mood swings! For us girls, we already suffer through this every month, let alone when we're stressed! This usually tends to affect the things i wish to achieve in life, my goals and what i wish to do, stuff i wish to start. I start feeling bad about myself and say i'm not good enough and i will never make it there. I put myself down and stay home all day, watching videos of people smiling and enjoying themselves and just wishing i was them.

When it comes to school, i always get stressed because i feel like i'm going to fail my exams and waste a school year. I had already quit school twice and starting school again is always one of my biggest fears as i begin to think that i'm going to do it all over again, and if i do go on with the school year, i worry about all the assignments that have to be done and just give up.

During the summer months, I was working in a Hotel and as you may know, many tourists come to visit Malta within that time of year. I was working as a part-timer, my shifts weren't super long, but there was a LOT of work to do! It was exhausting and it drove me nuts! Not only, but I used to go to work and back home by walk, it used to take me 30 minutes. By the time i arrive, i'd be soaking wet and it was horrible. It isn't nice at all to work around people and be all sweaty, even for your own sake, it's a very uncomfortable feeling!

I don't know about you, but besides school and work, when you're actually out of the house, i spend a lot of time at home rather than outside. Don't take me wrong, i love going out and spending time with family and friends, but i'm more of an indoor person who loves to be all cosy inside (in winter that is, and in summer out of the heat!). Although sometimes i may exaggerate and spend a looooong time inside and it eventually brings me down. I plan on changing that but it may take some time.

So i felt like i should share this with you as I pass through this quite often and wanted to talk about it. I'm sure a lot of you can relate and hopefully you'll realise you're not alone!

2014.. Where Have You Gone?!

Hello Readers!

Can't believe how time has passed so quickly.. It's already December! Don't know if it's just me but I feel that this year's gone by so fast!

For me, this year had more downs rather than ups.. I discovered a part of me which I never knew about - one that needs A LOT of improvement. This all had to do with the lack of confidence I had and still have and the feeling of being useless.

                               This is the stage I would call 'Growing Up'

Well, January to March were probably the months I had the least problems. I was still in college and I was quite happy there. I liked the subjects and I had this particular friend who had all 3 classes with me and we stayed together all the time. We had so many laughs and made up so much nicknames! I never wished the school year to end!

Then came April and I had about a month or so to study for my upcoming exams. As always, I had my doubts about how well I'd do in these exams, as I'm such a negative person. However, thanks to my family and friends for the encourgement, I just went along with it and tried my best.

Finally, summer had arrived. That also meant that it was time to get a summer job. I gave out plenty of CVs and kept my fingers crossed that I will get at least 1 reply.

                  One afternoon, I was having a coffee at my favourite Cafe, when                          suddenly I received an incoming call. I was so nervous.. but so happy at the same             time! I was actually called for an interview! That had definitely made my day!

I was finally employed after my interview and filling in a couple of questionnaires. It was a new experience working as a waitress. The places I've worked before were in retail. When you work in catering, it really does improve your confidence and makes you interact with new people! Being a shy person, this was rather a challenge for me. Talking to new people, being around a lot of people, carrying lots of plates and glasses and hoping not to drop anything and make a fool out of myself - yeah, i was very pressured not to make a mistake, but eventually I got the hang of it and the staff also helped me. I made good friends there and also met a boy whom always seems to make me smile no matter the situation!

In September-October the complications began. I had stopped work and started college again. Unfortunately, i ended up quitting the course as I wasn't happy at all. I started working again in November and felt quite strange as it felt like years had passed since I had quit and I'm still trying to get back to the routine till this very day. However, at the moment there is less work to get done unlike summer when it was extremely busy.

Currently in December. Planning on starting new things before the actual 'New Years Resolution' begins. Why not start early? After all, nobody knows if there will actually be a tomorrow. So make the most out of every moment and make every moment special!

                           2014.. So many new experiences and new memories.
                                  2015 may you be even more memorable!

                                      HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :) !